The Moment (Sketchy Thursdays)

I love this week's Sketchy Thursdays sketch:

And you will not believe what the DT made for your inspiration!  I love seeing the versatility of the sketches with the varied styles of the DT. 

So, I was just talking with a great friend recently who was excited that she may have just made her most fave layout ever.  And then I made my layout today for this sketch and well whadaya know!  I'm pretty sure this is MY most fave layout ever.  Good scrappin mojo transcends thousands of miles across the web!!! 

Last night I came across the Tyggereye Art Love blog and was so inspired by the amazing art that I practically dreamt about making this layout today.  I really had no idea how to go about it but just grabbed some cardboard and some paint and dug in. 

~picture detail~


Once I laid down the paint I stamped a bit, masked and misted a bit, and then finished it off with some pencil (partially around the painted hearts and alond the vertical stripes) and fingerpainted some areas.  I really have to say I'm impressed with how the background came out.  It looks like some cool patterned paper to me. 

~closer picture detail~
I covered the picture with some tuille to emphasize my rantings about identity lost in my journaling.  It's twisted and tied with wire in the corner with a charm displaying the date of the pic (which, incidentally, is sanded around the edges and fingerpainted with a silver glaze and some black paint).  What?  You say you don't see any journaling?  It's because it's on the back, silly! 

See, what I had to say, what this layout represents is how my life changed at that moment, at the moment we left the hospital with our little 5lb 3oz bundle and became forever new people.  And I don't necessarily want my kids reading the journaling so this is my way of hiding it. 

"This is the moment.  Oh, we didn't realize it at the time but looking back I now know.  The moment my identity was lost.  The identity I'd known.  I would no longer be autonomous. From this moment I am and will always be mom, mommy, mama...And how I'd longed and dreamt of and planned for those days.  But I never dreamed I'd sometimes cringe to hear those words.  And at first silently but now a bit more openly rage against that identity - or rather what that identity means.  That me.  I am lost.  It's no longer acceptable (although would it ever have been?) to make art for art's sake?  To make me happy.  Sane.  But then again, without you and all the moments you've hoisted upon me, would I want to create like this?  Explore me again (or for the first time?).  Truthfully, I can't remember "me" before and actually do believe you identified me.  The autonomous me.  I've never once NOT cherished and been thankful for you and what you brought to my life...And I never will not.  You created me and I love you.  Love, Mom, Mommy, Mama, Heidi"

Yes, a bit rambling.  Stream-of-consciousness.  I guess what I'm trying to get at is I need to create because of them - it just doesn't necessarily sound that way throughout, which is why I wouldn't want the kids to read it, KWIM? 

I'd love to see what you create with the rockin sketch.  Hook up your art to Mr. Linky in the Sketchy Thursdays sidebar for your chance to win the Unity Stamp Co. October Store Kit from Sweet Scrap Deal!

Oh, I so wish I had this kit.  It is wonderful...

Thanks for letting me ramble and rage and display my sometimes yellow mommy colors. 

Have a great Thursday!

- Heidi

Details - Making Memories paint & glaze; Glimmer Mist; Heidi Swapp mask; AMM charm, Stamps - {ippity}, Delish, Autumn Leaves; Stampin' Up! ink; pink tuille from Ninja Addicts Three Little Birds kit; Zig Millennium pen; pencil; cardboard; unknown wire.

P.S.  Check out today's post on the Cosmo Cricket blog.  Not only is it chock-full of yummy sneak peeks for some of their new lines but they're holding a contest...comment on your fave LSS or online independent store.   The winning store will receive a whole line and the winning commenter will also receive it.  Let's give torendi.com an awesome shout-out!!!!!